Standing Tall
William looked out over the city.
This high up the noise below was a mere din, yet the lights still revealed the magic. This was his place. He could be alone with his thoughts. There was something about being high above a busy city which felt comforting. This was his solitude where he could reflect on the chaos of life.
Tomorrow would be painful, but this last year had been a difficult journey. He knew what he had to do for closure. The question was whether he could take that step to finally move on. Andrea would be by his side, as his friend. She had been so supportive this past year. He knew she wanted more from him. Everyone around him had encouraged him to take a chance. He just wasn’t sure he was ready.
The next morning, he opened the door to Andrea. She always dressed immaculately, yet there was a conservatism to how she presented herself. She was a beautiful woman, yet she didn’t feel the need to show off skin and body parts. It was something which made her stand out from her contemporaries.
“How are you feeling?” she asked.
“I’m okay.”
She followed him into the lounge. His grandfather’s urn was on the table. Today would be a last goodbye.
“Would you like me to carry him?” she asked.
He shook his head. It was something he had to do. He glanced up at the wall clock. They would need to leave soon for their train. The ashes were to be scattered on the south coast. He had wanted to go alone and meet people there. She had insisted she accompany him, and he didn’t have the strength to argue. He hoped she wouldn’t want to talk about their relationship. Today was about his grandfather and nothing more.
“Do you remember that day we first met?” asked Andrea.
“Of course. I interviewed you.”
“You remember what your grandfather said?” She chuckled.
“Yes, well, he was old school. Never censored what he was thinking!”
“Such a character.”
He nodded. It was the polite way of saying someone was a dirty old man. He wasn’t, but he did like to make rude jokes. Thankfully, Andrea had a wonderful sense of humour. It was all banter. He did nothing offensive. That was why she had been perfect to be his grandfather’s carer. His grandfather had adored her and was quite vociferous in trying to push her and William together. He wasn’t interested. Not that he didn’t find her attractive, but he was paying her to look after his grandfather. Something didn’t feel right. Now was different, of course.
It was early evening when they were on the train heading back into the city. The ashes scattering had been poignant and hilarious. The wind had decided to make an appearance, so his grandfather’s ashes were partly in the sea, with the rest covering everyone’s clothes.
“Shall we have another drink when we get to the city?” she asked.
“Sure, I know a place we can go. I’d like to show you something.”
“Ooh!”
He feigned laughter. He had not been drinking as he needed a clear head. Andrea had a glazed look on her face. Her hand was on his thigh. The train was busy, so she was sitting next to him breathing wine fumes. He said nothing, just let her hand stay there.
The train pulled into London Bridge station. They got off with the crowds and he proffered his arm for her to link it. She looked delighted.
“Did you get your closure today?” she asked, as they walked out of the station.
“I guess I’ll know soon enough.”
“Oh my god. That view is beautiful.”
“I know. It’s a special place.”
“Is this where you’ve been coming?”
“Yes, it has helped me to get clarity.”
“Thank you for sharing it with me.”
William smiled. She reciprocated. It was clear she was expecting him to kiss her, but he wouldn’t just yet. They walked over to the edge, so she could experience the full view. He put his arm around her.
“Wow. It’s just breathtaking.”
“I agree. My grandfather liked it up here.”
“He came up here?”
“Yes, but before he was sick.”
“I can see why it’s a special place.”
“Yes, it helped me to work some things out.”
“Like what?”
“When did you first have feelings for me?”
“Honestly? The first moment I met you.”
He knew that would be her answer, but he needed it confirmed. He turned to face her. They were looking into each other’s eyes. It was a calm night. Perfect.
“Why did you do it?”
She hesitated. “Do what?” Her eyes betrayed her. It was clear she knew what he was asking.
“You did it for us, didn’t you?”
She hesitated again.
“Thank you,” he said, attempting to reassure her.
“For what?”
“For giving me my closure.”
She smiled. “I’d do anything for you.”
He smiled, cocked his head to one side, to show he was going to kiss her. She closed her eyes in anticipation. He knew this was the moment. Without a beat of hesitation, he pushed her off the roof.
Now, he had his closure.









